Friday, June 29, 2012

Freaky Friday

This morning I went to work early. It's been a stressful week. I've had a lot of meetings all over our campus and I've been organizing a celebration project for a milestone in our department all which had to be done this morning along with my regular workload. I started out Monday with a migraine, and it continued Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. I've spent several nights too stressed to fall asleep, or tossing and turning because of the stress. So today when I finished my morning meeting I sat at my desk and started to panic a little because my left hand was tingly. And then my neck felt tight. So I picked up all my stuff (including my husband, the benefit of working for the same company) and rushed myself to the doctor so she could run an EKG on me and see what was wrong. Guess what she found? Nothing. Not a thing. Perfect blood pressure(116/70), perfect EKG, perfect everything...I had managed to stress myself out to the point of an anxiety attack and I thought I was having a freaking cardiac event. I felt a little stupid for the literal panic I was in, but I would rather be safe than sorry. I'm fine, my anxiety attack is abating. I've only had a small handful of them over the course of my whole life, but as someone with ADHD I am somewhat more vulnerable to them than the average person. Still feeling a little silly though.

After today, I am painfully aware of my need to get some rest. I am looking forward to a restful weekend. It's weird, The Biggest Loser is doing an open casting call for season 14 here in Phoenix. I've gone to the last several casting calls and sent in multiple videos, and have never received a single call back. I don't think I'm going to go, even though I would love to be on the show especially since Bob Harper has totally become a Crossfitter himself! But I like the path I'm on. It's my own journey with the CrossFit Chaparral family and you all as my accountability, and God as my strength. I'm going to workout in the morning and go on with life.


No WOD today. I had to be at work too early, and after an anxiety attack, my body is exhausted and completely spent.


Breakfast: Huevos rancheros, no tortilla, yes bacon, coffee with H&H and Splenda.

Lunch: 5oz chicken breast, 1 cup frozen veggies

Dinner: Steak, broccoli, mashed potatoes, and a slice of garlic toast out. As well as a slice of cake today. It was a splurge afternoon.

Like I said a few days ago, I am looking back over my last month's worth of meals and looking to tighten things up and make greater headway on the weightloss portion of this experiment. I am so excited about the progress and changes I've implemented in our family life. Life is good, and even though circumstances and emotions may ebb and flow, I refuse to be discouraged.



1 comment:

  1. "Refuse to be discouraged" I love this!! What a continuum of courage to be sharing and growing and changing. So love reading and cheering with you in this journey!!